1780) Iranian Refugee to Swedish Pastor (part one of two)

An Iranian Refugee’s Terrible Journey to God

“I survived snowy mountains, a filthy prison, and an abusive husband.  Then I discovered who had protected me all along.”

By Annahita Parsan, “Testimony,” posted February 20, 2018, at:  http://www.christianitytoday.com

Annahita Parsan is an ordained minister in the Church of Sweden. She is the author of Stranger No More: A Muslim Refugee’s Harrowing Escape, Miraculous Rescue, and the Quiet Call of Jesus (Thomas Nelson).


     When Arif marched up to me in church, it was obvious that he was angry.  With his eyes narrowed in hate and his long beard trembling with rage, he was incensed that I, a Christian woman, would be trying to convert Muslims.  Within seconds Arif was flat on his back as if God had acted supernaturally to get his attention.  (This is not an uncommon experience when I witness to Muslims.)  It didn’t take long for Arif to break down and start crying, and once he’d opened up his heart to God like that, it was only a matter of time before he turned his back on Islam and gave his life to Jesus.  All I had to do was stand to the side and pray.

     But not everyone meets God this way.  For some, the journey to seeing Jesus as Savior is sudden and dramatic like it was on the road to Damascus.  But for others, the journey to faith looks more like the road to Emmaus: a gradual realization that Jesus is closer than the air we breathe.

     I know, because that’s exactly how it was with me.

     I was born in Iran—beautiful, peaceful Iran.  My life was good, and it got even better when I fell in love, got married, and gave birth to my son, Daniel.  I was 18 years old with a husband who loved me and a newborn baby we both adored.  Even the fact that my country was being overtaken by Islamic revolutionaries couldn’t dampen my joy.  Like so many people whose lives feel perfect, I had little appetite for God.  But all that was about to change.

     Death came like a thief one morning soon after Daniel was born.  My husband was killed in a traffic accident, and in an instant my life was robbed of joy.  I was in shock.  I was in denial.  And for the first time in my life, my mind turned to God.  I asked, What have I done to deserve this?

     In time the pain dulled a little, and I devoted myself to Daniel.  I remarried, but from the first night we were together, my new husband revealed himself to be a violent, abusive man.  My life was once more plunged into pain and sorrow.  Only this time, there was no end in sight.

     I gave birth to a daughter, Roksana, but my husband’s beatings continued.  And when he got in trouble with the authorities, I had no choice but to join him as he fled across the mountains into Turkey.

     It was a terrible journey.  We weren’t equipped for the snow, and soon my fingers, mouth, and toes were black with frostbite.  And when I realized that Roksana was no longer breathing, my thoughts once more returned to God.  Why are you punishing me this way?

     Crouched on the cold ground, my baby’s tiny body hanging limply in my arms, I was at my lowest point.  I had nothing left with which to fight.  I wanted to die.  I had no idea that God was right there with me.

     Hours later, as we sat by a fire in the custody of Turkish police, I got my first real glimpse of God.  Roksana was alive.  It was a miracle.  Throughout the next four months that we spent locked up in a filthy Turkish prison, God was right there.  He kept me safe from many dangers, and I know he was there too in the kindness of a stranger: a businessman, once imprisoned alongside us, who helped secure our release through Amnesty International.

     But it wasn’t until I was far away from Turkey that God started to reveal himself more clearly.  One day two men knocked on my apartment door.  They wanted to talk about Jesus, but I was too scared of my husband to talk to strangers.  They returned the next day and handed me a Bible.  I knew I should have thrown it away, but something made me want to keep it.  So I hid it where my husband couldn’t find it.  The next time he beat me until my body was bruised and sore, something compelled me to give the Bible a look.  It was a strange thing for a Muslim like me to do, but I felt better somehow.  It spoke to me, and I started to speak to God.  If you really are there, God, please help.

     Eventually, with the help of the police, I was able to leave my husband.  My children and I were relocated to another city and offered emergency shelter by nuns.  As I listened to them talk and sing about loving and following Jesus, something awakened within me.  Could I ever learn to love and trust you too, Jesus?

     Years passed before I had an answer.  I was back in Iran, having returned to visit a dying relative.  I tried to keep away from trouble, but I fell afoul of the regime.  The authorities were suspicious as to why I had left Iran in the first place, and I knew I couldn’t tell the truth about my escape without facing a return to prison.  After three months of court hearings and interviews, I stood before a judge, waiting to hear his verdict.  Powerless and desperate, I turned fully to the one who had been beside me throughout it all.  I promised God I would give my life to Christ if he could deliver me from this ordeal.

     Right then, as I prayed, he freed me from the enemy’s grip.  The judge, who saw that I was crying, had mercy on me and let me go free.  The very next day, I was back in Sweden—God had rescued me and brought me safely home.  From that day on, my life has been his.  (continued…)